5 Staves Reversed: 8/7/07

I have been struggling with the thoughts of relocation with the company I am with now. Offers from Long Beach California, to Toledo, Ohio, or Richmond, Virginia. I wanted the California move badly, and after I quoted a very low offer to move, it was sharply rejected. After 4 proposals and 4 rejections, I became bitter and shunned any idea of relocation.

Everything happens for a reason. Soon after these rejections, my Step-dad left my mom. Mom being alone and in her mid-sixties I felt a pull to move in with her, to help her financially, and to protect her from all the people I heard her talk about who treated her poorly. The idea of quitting my job, and moving in with my mom in Bassett, VA. was and is an extremely depressing thought. There is nothing there, and I mean nothing. No matter how I hated this idea, I knew I must do my duty as her only child to take care of my mom. I did not tell my mom that I was not looking forward to moving there as this would hurt her very much. This past month has been the hardest because I had my mind set that I must move there, like it or not.

I started to get a few feelers from my company about Richmond, Va. again. I don’t like living in Virginia, but Richmond would be better than Bassett as a city to live in. I would be about 4 hours from my mom, and 2 hours from other family members. My job offered to pay for the move, with a good increase in salary.

These past few months have been a bit trying. I have had wonderful proposals made to me by my current job. After submitting my plan for approval to begin my transition, the offer was then rejected. Each of these times I did not look to the Goddess for guidance. This time I did. She spoke to me saying:

“Different aspects of the same woman fight against each other. The broiling sun heats their tempers, making it difficult to distinguish what they’re really fighting for.”

In this case, when gazing upon my card, it was reversed with the meaning: “Moving beyond pettiness to realize what’s important. Unifying forces. Overcoming obstacles.”

It seems that my relocation to Richmond, Virginia is a path that satisfies everyone, including myself.

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Our first encounter alone...

About 5 months ago before I moved to Louisville, I felt compelled to purchase my own deck of Tarot cards. I stood looking at the different styles and felt the most secure with the Goddess Tarot. Today, April 3oth was the day I felt right and clear about opening and indulging in my curiosity of the Tarot, The Goddess. Today more than others I felt pulled, rather a beckoning to be apart of the Goddess. These were pure cards in my mind as they had never been opened, freed, let loose, reveled until tonight. I wished to learn and grow from the Goddess. I feel that she spoke to me, asking me to relieve my need for knowledge. She knew I needed guidance and she called to me.

You see, this past week one question pondered my mind the most. Did I make the right decision to move to Kentucky and not California? Both cites contained their pro's and con's, but one would be the wise choice. To move for life or love. I was not ready for love. I needed to live life for me and me alone. That is how I feel most all of the time even with allot of people around me, as a good friend and teacher of sorts once told me. Thank you E!

I read the book that came with my virginal Goddess cards. I did not open the deck until I felt I had some better understanding of what the cards meant. Once I felt calm and centered, I opened the cards and looked at each one making sure they were not sticking to each other. The cards are in order by suit as I had expected. Once I read the last card, I simply held them making sure not to drop or shuffle them. I thought about the cards moving between my fingers and palms. I thought about my question, "Did I make the right move?" and imagined the suits were sliding around thought the cards were not removed from their spots. I continued thinking and moving the cards until a card presented it self to me. I pulled it from the center of the deck not knowing the order at all. I was surprised, honored, and in awe of the card, I pulled for myself.

The Ace of Swords:

Meaning:

The suit of swords is associated with Isis, the Egyptian fertility goddess. Swords symbolize the incisive forces of the intellect; swords also symbolize the magical ability to transform painful situations into areas of personal growth. The story of Isis and her consort Osiris illustrates this principle beautifully. Like Isis, we can choose how to use our swords. We can turn them against ourselves when we are in pain. Or we can transform the situation through knowledge and understanding.
A single sword is stuck into a desert landscape surrounding several pyramids, the final resting place of the monarchs of ancient Egypt. The sword is decorated with the horned symbol of Isis and the lotus. Meanings: Pure understanding and wisdom. The ability to wield the sword wisely to gain order. Clarity and good judgment.

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A grand card to pull for my first personal reading wouldn't you say?