5 Staves Reversed: 8/7/07
I have been struggling with the thoughts of relocation with the company I am with now. Offers from Long Beach California, to Toledo, Ohio, or Richmond, Virginia. I wanted the California move badly, and after I quoted a very low offer to move, it was sharply rejected. After 4 proposals and 4 rejections, I became bitter and shunned any idea of relocation.
Everything happens for a reason. Soon after these rejections, my Step-dad left my mom. Mom being alone and in her mid-sixties I felt a pull to move in with her, to help her financially, and to protect her from all the people I heard her talk about who treated her poorly. The idea of quitting my job, and moving in with my mom in Bassett, VA. was and is an extremely depressing thought. There is nothing there, and I mean nothing. No matter how I hated this idea, I knew I must do my duty as her only child to take care of my mom. I did not tell my mom that I was not looking forward to moving there as this would hurt her very much. This past month has been the hardest because I had my mind set that I must move there, like it or not.
I started to get a few feelers from my company about Richmond, Va. again. I don’t like living in Virginia, but Richmond would be better than Bassett as a city to live in. I would be about 4 hours from my mom, and 2 hours from other family members. My job offered to pay for the move, with a good increase in salary.
These past few months have been a bit trying. I have had wonderful proposals made to me by my current job. After submitting my plan for approval to begin my transition, the offer was then rejected. Each of these times I did not look to the Goddess for guidance. This time I did. She spoke to me saying:
“Different aspects of the same woman fight against each other. The broiling sun heats their tempers, making it difficult to distinguish what they’re really fighting for.”
In this case, when gazing upon my card, it was reversed with the meaning: “Moving beyond pettiness to realize what’s important. Unifying forces. Overcoming obstacles.”
It seems that my relocation to Richmond, Virginia is a path that satisfies everyone, including myself.
Everything happens for a reason. Soon after these rejections, my Step-dad left my mom. Mom being alone and in her mid-sixties I felt a pull to move in with her, to help her financially, and to protect her from all the people I heard her talk about who treated her poorly. The idea of quitting my job, and moving in with my mom in Bassett, VA. was and is an extremely depressing thought. There is nothing there, and I mean nothing. No matter how I hated this idea, I knew I must do my duty as her only child to take care of my mom. I did not tell my mom that I was not looking forward to moving there as this would hurt her very much. This past month has been the hardest because I had my mind set that I must move there, like it or not.
I started to get a few feelers from my company about Richmond, Va. again. I don’t like living in Virginia, but Richmond would be better than Bassett as a city to live in. I would be about 4 hours from my mom, and 2 hours from other family members. My job offered to pay for the move, with a good increase in salary.
These past few months have been a bit trying. I have had wonderful proposals made to me by my current job. After submitting my plan for approval to begin my transition, the offer was then rejected. Each of these times I did not look to the Goddess for guidance. This time I did. She spoke to me saying:
“Different aspects of the same woman fight against each other. The broiling sun heats their tempers, making it difficult to distinguish what they’re really fighting for.”
In this case, when gazing upon my card, it was reversed with the meaning: “Moving beyond pettiness to realize what’s important. Unifying forces. Overcoming obstacles.”
It seems that my relocation to Richmond, Virginia is a path that satisfies everyone, including myself.
posted by SSB @ 5:15 AM
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2 Comments:
Hi Kim
how u doing?
hey.were u frnd of ashes.i m new here. n thought it wld b gud to start by sayin to his frnds since it wld b nice to tak to ppl like him.
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